Walk with christ day two

Ok day two of the walk with christ activity for those of you just reading Im doing an activity where you walk with christ the last seven days of his life. Its been really interesting and uplifting so far.
Day two
Day of authority
Jesus Christ returns to the temple and drives the moneychangers from the outer court
read Matthew 21:12-15
thought- we all have things we need to cleanse from our lives each day. this is why our loving heavenly father provided us with the opportunity to repent. Are there things that you need to "cast out" of your "temple"?
challenge- today I will choose one thing that I need to cleanse from my life and sincerely repent and strive to do better
Envelope 2
the card files
in that place between wakefulness and dreams, i found myself in the room. there were no features except for the one wall covered by small index card files. these files stretched from floor to ceiling and went endlessly in both directions. as i drew near the wall of files the first to catch my attention was one that read "boys I have liked" I opened it and began flipping through the cards. I quickly shut it shocked to realize that i recognized the names on each one. i then realized where i was this lifeless room with its small files was a crude catalogue system of my life. here were written the actions of my every moment, big and small in every detail. a sense of wonder and curiosity mixed with horror stirred within me as i began opening files and looking at their contents. . some brought joy and sweet memories others a sense of shame and regret so intense that i looked over my shoulder to see if anyone was watching.
a file named friends was next to the one marked friends i have betrayed the titles ranged from the mundane to the weird. books i have read lies i have told comfort i have given. jokes i have laughed at. people i have hurt. some were almost funny in their exactness
things i have done in anger. things i have muttered under my breath at my parents. often there were many more cards than i expected. sometimes fewer than i had hoped i was overwhelmed by the volume of life i had lived. could it be possible that i had the time in my young life to write each of these thousands of millions of cards? but each card confirmed this truth each was written in my own handwriting each signed with my signature.
when i pulled out the file marked songs i have listened too. i realized the files grew to contain the contents. the cards were packed tightly yet after two or three yards i hadnt found the end of the file. i shut it shamed not so much of the quality music but more by the amount fo time i knew it represented. when i came to a file marked "lustful thoughts" i felt a chill run through my body i pulled the file out inch by inch not willing to test its size and drew out a card.

I shuddered at the details. I felt sick to think that such a moment had been recorded a rage broke through me no one must see these cards no one must ever see this room. i have to destroy them. in a frenzy i yanked the file out its size didnt matter now i had to empty it and burn the cards. i took it out and pounded it on the floor not a single card would come outi desperately pulled out a card and tried to rip it but it was strong as steel.
leaning my forehead against the wall i let out a sigh then i saw it the title "people i have shared the gospel with: the handles were brighter than those around it newer almost unused i pulled on its handle a small box fell into my hands. i could count the the cards it contained on one hand. and then the tears came. i began to cry sobbing so deep it hurt my stomach i fell on my knees and cried out in shame the rows of shelves whirled around me. no one must ever know of this room. i must lock it up and hide the key. But as i pushed away the tears i saw him no please not here oh anyone but jesus i watched helplessly as he began to open the files and read the cards. i couldnt bear to watch his response in the moments that i could bring myself to look at his face i saw sorrow deeper that my own he seemed to go to the worst boxes. why did he have to read every one finally he turned and looked at me with pity in his eyes
but this wasnt a pity that angered me i dropped my head and began to cry again but he didnt say a word he just cried with me then he got up and walked back to the wall of files starting at one end of the room he took our a card and one by one he began to sign his name over mine.
No i shouted rushing at him all i could find to say was no no as i pulled th card from him his name shouldnt be on those cards. but there it was written in red so rich so dark so alive the name jesus covered mine. it was written with his blood
he gently took the cards back he smiled a sad smile and began to sign all the cards. i do not think i will ever understand how did it so quickly but the next instance it seemed i heard him close the last file and walk back to my side he placed his hand on my shoulder and said "it is finished" I stood up and he led me out of the room there was no lock on the door. there are still cards to be written...


I love this story repentance is a huge part of my testimony I know that Jesus Christ died for our sins so that he could save us. Thinking of being that girl in that room and how it would have felt to have Jesus say it is finished and the relief and the shame and sadness that she must have felt knowing that jesus had the power to do that but shamed and sad that he had to do it.

walk with christ

So my aunt and uncle are doing an easter activity that I love so I thought I would share it with all of you. Starting today (the sunday before easter) We will be walking with christ through his last seven days on Earth. so here is the description starting this sunday and for each day this week, take a few minutes out of each morning to open the numbered envelope and the corresponding easter egg and read the contents. Have your scriptures handy and a scripture marking pencil. read the indicated scriptures and write your insights into your journal think about the challenges and try to incoporate them into your day keeping christ in your thoughts. put the slip of paper that we have put in each egg on your mirror to remind you. make personal progress a part of this journey. the nature of this activity is such that you will get out of it exactly what you put in. may you blessed with a greater understanding of the saviors life and feel an increase in love and gratitude for his sacrifice.

Day one
day of recognition
Jesus Christ rides through the city gates at Jerusalem and is greeted by followers waving palm fronds as a welcome to their king. He vists the temple
Read Matthew 21:6-11
thought- would we be one of those who cheered as christ rode into the city or would we ask "who is this?" How well do you know the savior?
challenge- I will think of christ more often and make my prayers more meaningful so that i may come to know him better. I love this challenge How many times do we pray but not really think about what were saying? Its just the same words over and over are we praying to have a conversation with god and Jesus Christ or are we just praying because were supposed too?
Envelope one-what it means to know christ
A man passes away and was resurrected and waiting in a room to be interviewed another man was ahead of him. the door opened the man entered the door closed the interviewer began. I want you to tell me what you know about Jesus Christ.
well, he was born of a virgin in bethlehem he lived thirty three years spending the last three in his ministry organizing his church choosing his apostles to direct it giving the gospel to direct out lives.
the interviewer stopped him and said yes, yes thats all true but i want you to tell me what you know about jesus christ.
well, he was tortured and crucified that we might have eternal life. three days later he was resurrected that we might return to our heavenly father.
Yes,yes that is true but i want you to tell me what you know about jesus christ. the man a little perplexed again began well he restored the gospel in its fullness through joseph smith reorganized his church, gave us temples wherein we might do work to save our dead. he gave us family prayer and family home evening where we might unite with our families. he gave us the priesthood to heal the sick and personal ordinances for our salvation and exaltation.
the interviewer again stopped him and said all of what you have said to me is true. the man was then invited to leave the room. after he left the door opened and the second man entered. as he approached the interviewer he fell upon his knees and cried, "My lord, My god."

Would we recognize christ if we walked into that room?

you learn something new everyday

So today in institute we were discussing goals and my institute teacher challenged us to write down 100 things we want to accomplish before we die they could be little things or big things. things we thought we would probably never accomplish but would like to or something that we are very near to accomplishing so I decided to start my list I havent quite gotten to a hundred but I would like to post some of them on here so I can go back later and see how I did in accomplishing them if I accomplish any of them lol.
Hike Havasupi
Get a bachelors degree from BYU
Hike Zions
Become an EMT
Graduate from institute
Be on a dance company again at least for a year
Get a PHD (not quite sure in what yet)
Go on a mission
Get married in the temple
Be a woman of prayer
be an RN
become either an institute teacher or teach world religion on a college level
Always be worthy to enter the temple
Get organized (if you know me you know im terrible at this)
repay my school loans as quickly as possible
Teach a dance class
Own my own dance studio
Be on a professional dance company
Learn to love myself for me not what anyone else thinks of me
Teach my children the gospel
Vist every country
Live a year in England
Own a red or pink vw bug
Read all of the books on the BBC list of books you should read
Volunteer my services as an RN to third world countries that need my help
Continue learning getting as many degrees as I am financially and time wise able to
Become a public speaker
Become a motivational speaker
write a book
learn to draw
learn to sew
learn to cook
become a pastry chef
own a bookstore
read the book of mormon every day even if its just a verse a night
run a marathon
run the st george marathon
build a house with habitat for humanity
act in a play
act in a movie
dance in a movie
learn to sing
own my own house
never go into debt again even for school
own my own car
learn to change a car tire
learn to change the oil
vist all fifty states
write in a journal every day
vist every temple



those are only a few of the things I have listed but I loved this challenge it really made me think about what I wanted to accomplish I hadnt really thought about how many opportunities I really had available to me. I can accomplish and do whatever I set my mind too. My life is so different than what I had envisioned in high school. I always thought I would get married within two to four years of getting out of high school and then have a family. College was just to kind of pass the time until my life started. I now want completely different things. I still want to get married but Im not just waiting for it to happen. I want to go on a mission I want to get as much education as I can. I want to make the world a better place. I have never felt this on fire before its nice to finally have some direction in my life instead of worrying about the stupid things I did in high school like being on the cheer team or who won the game on Friday. I loved high school I had some awesome experiences but its time to let it go and move on with my life and I have never been more excited for my life to start =)

the secret life of Jenny =)

I need to get better at posting because i have so much going on in my life and i get so frustrated at my friends that dont post on their life and i do the same thing lol. So a few things that have happened since I last wrote
1. Im about midterm into my spring semester here as SLCC and I love it! Im thinking that I will take the next few semesters off and just work full time so that I can pay back my school loans before I go any further in school. Word to the wise never go into debt even if its for your education its just not worth all of the stress especially in this economy
2. Life in happy valley as our institute president puts it is going wonderfully I love living with my aunt and uncle they have a completely different view on the world that I am not used to at all. They live by the spirt and follow gods direction in every aspect of their life. When I get married I would love to have a marriage like theirs, they have their problems but I have never seen two people more in love with each other. They dont have t.v. even the basic package. The only reason they even have a t.v. set is to watch movies. Its been interesting not watching t.v and yet at the same time very refreshing I never realized how much time I spent sitting in front of the tube and vegging out.
3. Church is going well I really hate going to a singles ward though so I am thinking about switching to a student ward at the SLCC institute seeing as its right down the street and the singles ward that I am going to is in murray which is about twenty minutes away.
4. Dance I have finally started dancing again and its been amazing though I lost alot of my strength and skill from taking a year off but I am taking a couple of classes and am teaching a basic dance class for kids so all in all going grand.
5. Dating I am not currently dating anyone though there have been some pretty wild rumors flying around out there that I am getting married so no I am not getting married anytime soon which leads me to the next thing
6. Mission I still have a year before I can go on a mission but I have decided to go on one and am preparing for it now I am excited and nervous and scared to death but at the same time thrilled. I never really wanted to go on a mission before getting married but I am happy that I can.

so thats the update finally lol thanks for being patient everyone =) I love you all have a great rest of the week

a week in st george

i just got back from a week in st george which was badly needed. i learned alot about myself and what direction i needed to take. as much as i love st george salt lake is my home and always will be. i love the fact that there is more than four things to do in salt lake unlike st george. i was glad to see alot of my old friends i went shopping with jill which was an experience in and of itself lol i saw karson and went shopping with him i saw david and hung out with him alot i saw bryce after two years and that was a very strange experience to see him and talk to him he grew up i cant believe he is 21 now i feel so young and so old at the same time lol i went to see new moon on thursday at midnight and saw people being completly nuts i mean i like twilight as much as anyone but man people are nuts!!! i wish i had a camera and taken pictures but oh well. i got some christmas shopping done for my cousins and my aunt and uncle now i just need to figure out what to get my parents and siblings. school is starting to wrap up and finals are coming up soon. im starting a cna class on december 7th that goes for two weeks that im excited to finally be taking and hopefully will get a job as a cna soon. so i know how everyone loves the holidays and all of that but honestly i hate christmas i hate the fact that people have lost sight of the true meaning of christmas how everyone is so stressed trying to get all of the 'fun" traditions done that they dont actually enjoy the traditions because everyone is mad at each other or stressed trying to get there i hate the fact that christmas is all about one upping each other on who got the best present oh i got an iphone oh thats nothing i got a macair etc etc i dont like the fact that people have taken christ out of christmas i would much rather have a quiet time at home having a nice meal and actually enjoying each others conversation instead of trying to be four places at once ok thats my rant on christmas lol as for this christmas it will be different to see how my aunt and uncle do it compared to my parents well thats all for now oh and shout out to my friend rachael im so sorry about your grandpa my thoughts and prayers are with you (((hugs)))) have a good week everyone

happy one year anniversary to me!!!!

its been a year since i moved out on my own and so many crazy and wild good and bad things have happened to me. i moved to salt lake from st george and it was one of the best decisions i have ever made. not that i dont love st george but for right now salt lake is where i am supposed to be. i moved twice since i have been here i moved to herriman first to be a nanny for some old friends and that kind of went bad because they were having some money troubles and some other issues. i moved to my grandparents for about three months and that was good and fun i got to know my grandparents a lot better than i ever have before. i then went to vist my uncle and aunt and cousins and within a couple of weeks they had asked me to come live with them and help my aunt with their four kids and this has been the second week i have lived with them its been an adventure and a blast i have all ready learned so much from them. i feel badly that i hadnt had much of a relationship with them while i was growing up i was being a stupid busy teenager that was too busy to deal with being with her family and that makes me very sad now but at least we can try and make up the time now. the only downside is that their downstairs bathroom doesnt work so there are six girls one guy and one bathroom ....yeah its an adventure in the morning we form a line down the hall way sitting and waiting for our turn to go bathroom and doing "the potty dance" lol my cousins are amanda who is ten going on twenty sometimes its hard to remember that she is ten she speaks like she is forty sometimes lol alexa is seven and is turning eight in feburary and is very excited to get baptized soon she is the shy quiet one of the family angela is five and is very in your face if you dont pay attention to her she will make you pay attention to her she is a little ball of energy and its almost impossible to keep up with her then there is andria who is almost two years old and climbs on everything you cant turn your back on her for five minutes because if you do she will be up on the piano bench or on the top of the stool or some other really high place that she is dangerously close to falling from. my aunt sara is an amazing lady she takes care of four young girls and homeschools them all so she is full time mom and full time teacher and she gives me a lot of really good advice my uncle troy is stuck in a house full of six drama queens but he does really well with it he works as a stock brocker and he loves it and i love the way they run there family and how they have accepted me as part of the family i am not a guest in their home i am one of their daughters and they treat me as such lol its funny when sara gets her mommy cap as she calls it on and tells me something like you better put on a jacket its cold and things like i forgot how nice it was to have someone care about you and care about when you got home or ask how your day was how was class i didnt realise i had missed it that much until i had it again im going to st george on november fifteenth and will be there for a week which should prove to be interesting and fun hopefully.... my aunt and uncle and i are starting this new excersie program called p90x its an intense program but it gets results i have done the research on it and its amazing what you can accomplish with it so if we keep at it im hoping that it will kick my butt into shape. my singles ward is going great i love it so far though im the youngest one there lol its funny to see peoples reaction how old are you? oh im 27 how old are you? oh im nineteen blank stare.....really? i even had one guy ask to look at my drivers license to see if i really was only 19 it made me laugh. oh congrats to my friend kelsey who got engaged a couple days ago you will make a beautiful bride =) well thats all for right now i hope everyone has an awesome week

snooty and the beast

ok everybody (meaning the two people who actually read this blog lol) update time i am currently working as a nanny for my aunt and uncle who needed the help and it has been very fun i am sad that i didnt get to know them very much while i was growing up they have a different way of doing some things but i have never met a family so strong in the gospel! they have been very good in accepting me as part of the family and i call my aunt mom now lol it started out as a slip but just kind of grew to a habit lol I miss my family more than i expected to living up here in salt lake while they are in st george. bryce tadd comes home in two weeks that should be interesting and taylor and dallas wedding was this weekend i couldnt be there but i heard that it was beautiful and amazing from my best friend jill who happened to be her bridesmaid lol anyway midterms are going well just one more to go yay and then to be free for a week oh it will be glorious my grandpas birthday was on sunday and it was a very good day for the entire family rifts are starting to mend and that gives me hope for my own rift i just hope it doesnt take two years lol we went to a play for his birthday called snooty and the beast at deseret star theatre they obviously do spoofs etc and it was funny and cute anyway i have to go be a nanny now lol my friend told me the description of being a nanny taking care of kids as if they were your own without the benefit of a husband lol exactly but i love it lol