a week in st george

i just got back from a week in st george which was badly needed. i learned alot about myself and what direction i needed to take. as much as i love st george salt lake is my home and always will be. i love the fact that there is more than four things to do in salt lake unlike st george. i was glad to see alot of my old friends i went shopping with jill which was an experience in and of itself lol i saw karson and went shopping with him i saw david and hung out with him alot i saw bryce after two years and that was a very strange experience to see him and talk to him he grew up i cant believe he is 21 now i feel so young and so old at the same time lol i went to see new moon on thursday at midnight and saw people being completly nuts i mean i like twilight as much as anyone but man people are nuts!!! i wish i had a camera and taken pictures but oh well. i got some christmas shopping done for my cousins and my aunt and uncle now i just need to figure out what to get my parents and siblings. school is starting to wrap up and finals are coming up soon. im starting a cna class on december 7th that goes for two weeks that im excited to finally be taking and hopefully will get a job as a cna soon. so i know how everyone loves the holidays and all of that but honestly i hate christmas i hate the fact that people have lost sight of the true meaning of christmas how everyone is so stressed trying to get all of the 'fun" traditions done that they dont actually enjoy the traditions because everyone is mad at each other or stressed trying to get there i hate the fact that christmas is all about one upping each other on who got the best present oh i got an iphone oh thats nothing i got a macair etc etc i dont like the fact that people have taken christ out of christmas i would much rather have a quiet time at home having a nice meal and actually enjoying each others conversation instead of trying to be four places at once ok thats my rant on christmas lol as for this christmas it will be different to see how my aunt and uncle do it compared to my parents well thats all for now oh and shout out to my friend rachael im so sorry about your grandpa my thoughts and prayers are with you (((hugs)))) have a good week everyone

happy one year anniversary to me!!!!

its been a year since i moved out on my own and so many crazy and wild good and bad things have happened to me. i moved to salt lake from st george and it was one of the best decisions i have ever made. not that i dont love st george but for right now salt lake is where i am supposed to be. i moved twice since i have been here i moved to herriman first to be a nanny for some old friends and that kind of went bad because they were having some money troubles and some other issues. i moved to my grandparents for about three months and that was good and fun i got to know my grandparents a lot better than i ever have before. i then went to vist my uncle and aunt and cousins and within a couple of weeks they had asked me to come live with them and help my aunt with their four kids and this has been the second week i have lived with them its been an adventure and a blast i have all ready learned so much from them. i feel badly that i hadnt had much of a relationship with them while i was growing up i was being a stupid busy teenager that was too busy to deal with being with her family and that makes me very sad now but at least we can try and make up the time now. the only downside is that their downstairs bathroom doesnt work so there are six girls one guy and one bathroom ....yeah its an adventure in the morning we form a line down the hall way sitting and waiting for our turn to go bathroom and doing "the potty dance" lol my cousins are amanda who is ten going on twenty sometimes its hard to remember that she is ten she speaks like she is forty sometimes lol alexa is seven and is turning eight in feburary and is very excited to get baptized soon she is the shy quiet one of the family angela is five and is very in your face if you dont pay attention to her she will make you pay attention to her she is a little ball of energy and its almost impossible to keep up with her then there is andria who is almost two years old and climbs on everything you cant turn your back on her for five minutes because if you do she will be up on the piano bench or on the top of the stool or some other really high place that she is dangerously close to falling from. my aunt sara is an amazing lady she takes care of four young girls and homeschools them all so she is full time mom and full time teacher and she gives me a lot of really good advice my uncle troy is stuck in a house full of six drama queens but he does really well with it he works as a stock brocker and he loves it and i love the way they run there family and how they have accepted me as part of the family i am not a guest in their home i am one of their daughters and they treat me as such lol its funny when sara gets her mommy cap as she calls it on and tells me something like you better put on a jacket its cold and things like i forgot how nice it was to have someone care about you and care about when you got home or ask how your day was how was class i didnt realise i had missed it that much until i had it again im going to st george on november fifteenth and will be there for a week which should prove to be interesting and fun hopefully.... my aunt and uncle and i are starting this new excersie program called p90x its an intense program but it gets results i have done the research on it and its amazing what you can accomplish with it so if we keep at it im hoping that it will kick my butt into shape. my singles ward is going great i love it so far though im the youngest one there lol its funny to see peoples reaction how old are you? oh im 27 how old are you? oh im nineteen blank stare.....really? i even had one guy ask to look at my drivers license to see if i really was only 19 it made me laugh. oh congrats to my friend kelsey who got engaged a couple days ago you will make a beautiful bride =) well thats all for right now i hope everyone has an awesome week

snooty and the beast

ok everybody (meaning the two people who actually read this blog lol) update time i am currently working as a nanny for my aunt and uncle who needed the help and it has been very fun i am sad that i didnt get to know them very much while i was growing up they have a different way of doing some things but i have never met a family so strong in the gospel! they have been very good in accepting me as part of the family and i call my aunt mom now lol it started out as a slip but just kind of grew to a habit lol I miss my family more than i expected to living up here in salt lake while they are in st george. bryce tadd comes home in two weeks that should be interesting and taylor and dallas wedding was this weekend i couldnt be there but i heard that it was beautiful and amazing from my best friend jill who happened to be her bridesmaid lol anyway midterms are going well just one more to go yay and then to be free for a week oh it will be glorious my grandpas birthday was on sunday and it was a very good day for the entire family rifts are starting to mend and that gives me hope for my own rift i just hope it doesnt take two years lol we went to a play for his birthday called snooty and the beast at deseret star theatre they obviously do spoofs etc and it was funny and cute anyway i have to go be a nanny now lol my friend told me the description of being a nanny taking care of kids as if they were your own without the benefit of a husband lol exactly but i love it lol

general confernce

It seems like every other time I post a blog its to say congrats to one of my friends who has gotten engaged or married Lol so this week its bre Christie who got proposed to yesterday so yay! Ok so general confernce was amazing! This is really the first time that I have sat down and actually listened to it and it was amazing that in every talk there was something that seemed to be just for me to hear and it re instilled my testimony and love for the church I have to admit I'm very partial to Gordon b hinckley and he will probably always be my favorite prophet but president monson is truly our living prophet today I loved all the talks on missionary work because I have so many friends on missions and I know how strong they are :) I'm going to my aunt and uncles house tonight to see them and my cousins I haven't seen them in two years and they have a baby I have never even met so I'm excited to go to dinner and spend time with them I loved confernce but I was sad that I missed my family tradition of eating cinnamon rolls while in our pajamas we always knew it was general confernce Sunday because we would wake up to that amazing cinnamon smell so I missed that but I still loved it :) have a good week everybody

cleaning the confernce center

So this week I got Taylor Livingston and Dallas goughs wedding invitation it was very cute and they look very much in love sadly its not in the budget to go down and do some of the things I want to do so best of luck to you both this is the first time that my friends have married each other its kind of weird Lol when did we all grow up and get married and have kids? So Saturday my singles ward went to help clean the confernce center in prepration for general confernce it was actually really fun we had a huge bathroom though forty stalls I'm not kidding we counted but we sang disney songs and hymns as loud as we could they told us we were the first group to sing Lol my friend Jan lost her job last week and trying to help her find a new one is not going so well stupid economy I'm grateful I don't have to worry about rent or food its been nice so Davids family invited me on their annual California trip I don't know if I will ho yet or not we will see how the schedule works out and the money Lol ok well have a good week

this blog is going private in about a week

Ok so much to report school is going really well I love it so this Friday Jan and jalene and I went to our singles ward camout which was a lot of fun we stayed in cabins so I don't think of it as really camping then on Saturday we went to the demolition derby I had never been to one and it was amazingly fun watching idiots trying to crush each other into a pulp lol Jan and I found a great new frozen yogurt shop called frogurts its amazing and healthier than ice cream Jan jalene and I have earned the nickname of the three j s in our singles ward because were always together we do like everything together now which makes me laugh and give me a stronger testimony of prayer because the week befor I met them I felt like I had no friends up here and was just really sad about it I prayed to heavenly father for help with this issue and that Sunday jalene say down next to me in relief society and wouldn't stop talking to me lol she asked if I wanted to go dancing with her and her friend Jan I said yes and from that night on we three became inseparable we do everything together its kind of funny how things like that work out it was my friend wills birthday a couple days ago and he is in the army so I sent him a card and some candy so happy birthday will! Oh I have also made the decision to make this blog private if you would like me to add you to the list of people who can read it email me or facebook mesage me your email I will probably wait a week or so before making it private to give all you guys a chance too email me ok everybody have a wonderful week

birthdays the zoo and the state fair how can it get any better

Welll let's see labor day my grandparents and my aunt and I went to the zoo it was actually pretty fun even if it was really hot not st george hot but pretty hot all the same we then went to I hop where we ate a very badly cooked ham lol I went on my first blind date and it went very badly I will never ever go on another blind date ever I have once again started going and working out in the morning and its starting to show I can get back in my skinny jeans now I just need to get back in my skinny skinny jeans lol and that will take a little more work ok a lot more work but hey I'm making progress so my aunts birthday is tommorow I got her a bag of twizzlers and a bag of m and Ms and a card we are then going to hale theatre to see the scarlet pimprenell and then cake and ice cream and then on Sunday my grandmas sister and her husband are coming over for brownies and ice cream oh I almost forgot I'm also going to lunch with a very old friend tommorow Katie walkingshaw I'm pretty excited to talk to her after a couple of years. School is going really well I got my first math test back I got a b plus I have never scored that high on a math test ever so yes I'm very proud of myself so we went to the utah state fair yesterday there were some amazing things there we saw a magic show which was really fun and then went to the rodeo where I really enjoyed myself despite my hesitation my grandmother then proceeded to tell me she thinks cowboys are sexy I about died laughing it was so funny to hear her say that anyway that's what I have been up to oh my dads birthday is on Monday I sent him a card but happy birthday dad

a new laptop and Canada

Ok let's see the first week of school is offically over yay my marriage and family class should be really interesting and I hate math but I had truly forgotten how much I love English I love writing my essays and knowing that they sound well thought out and knowlegable even if sometimes they aren't I got a new laptop with part of my college refund and I love it its so nice of course my grandparents don't have internet so I have to go to school or the library to make it work but hey at least I have one let's see oh my friends are in Canada I was invited to come along for only three hundred dollars which is not bad for four days that covered gas food hotel etc but I couldn't go not because I couldn't afford it and not because I would have to miss school (which I wouldn't have to by the way) no my grandmother didn't want me going out of the country for that long keep in mind that these are nice Mormon girls one is twenty six and the other is twenty four and she has met them so I have to give my parents credit they did let me go a lot of places alone with my friends so yes I'm a little frusturated at my grandmother because its not like I'm going across the ocean its Canada for heavens sake but oh well so that's pretty much it have a great week everyone

first day of school

So I started school this Wednesday I only had math and English and it went pretty well considering I hate math I also have a ton of homework all ready but it wasn't bad I got three thousand dollars worth of finacial aid enough to pay for fall spring tuition and books so that's good anyway congrats to Taylor pier who got engaged last weekend yay but that's all for now

weddings weddings weddings and a friend coming home soon

Hey everybody ok so I have some congrats to offer everybody who is getting married kylie and Jason kahea who got propsed to on her birthday Lindsey lee got married a couple weeks ago and Natalie ward got married about a month ago so congrats to all of you now what's going on in my life I have just been working full time as a housekeeper which is ironic to me that I'm now a housekeeper that when I was growing up my room always looked like a war zone and like a bomb had gone off all rolled into one so another piece of news my mother got pnemonia and had to go to the hospital now as you all know I don't get along very well with my parents and with me living in salt lake and all they would need to tell my grandparents that she was in the hospital now usually this is a big thing going to the hospital is something I think you should probably tell your daughter or your parents/grandparents of course my parents didn't think they should tell me so I found out when my best friend texted me asking how my mom was and confused I asked her what she meant where I then found out that my mother was in the hopsital isn't that just an awesome way to find out? Anyway it doesn't matter she is home now and better but whatever hmmm let's see oh Bryce tadd is coming home in eleven weeks and we have been writing back and forth for awhile and I'm excited to see him after two years and see how he has changed well that's it for me have a good week everybody

parents coming up for an entire week heaven help me

Ok so my good news this week hmmm I just am kind of go along with my life I really really miss St george right now I especially miss Jill its hard to find time in both are schedules to talk and keep our friendship up oh my parents are coming up for a whole week please pray for me that I will survive and neithe one of us will kill the other its just going to be weird seeing them again I feel really alone up here in salt lake I mean I go to the singles ward but more than half of them are like twenty five or twenty six I'm hoping to meet people at school but we will see sometimes it sucks being shy well there is nothing else I really need to report I hope you all had a fantastic weekend

college no more anxiety and a wedding

Ok everyone another update time so I made it through my first official week at work I forgot to blog about the fact that I'm not just a server anymore I have been promoted to housekeeping and its full time and pays great oh and it has benefits so I no longer have to worry about the fact that I can't afford health insurance so yay oh that brings me to another point I have been taking anti anxiety medicine since I was fourteen I had decided to go off of it about a week ago with the a doctors supervision of course and I am proud to say that I no longer have to take it and am doing great yay um I got registerd for my college classes though sadly I have to take math and I'm horrible at math so wish me luck on that. David came up again this weekend and we had a good time going to see the ugly truth which was funny but a little crude anyway I get my first paycheck Wednesday yay me lol oh and congrats to my friend Kahea who got engaged on her birthday you will make a beautiful bride

college boys life in general

Ok update time I have a horrible cold and I have no idea how I got it in summer but whateveri still have one my new job is awesome I love my boss and co workers I hate cleaning up after people but honestly its a job and that's a lot more than some people the only thing I hate about it is that I don't sit down for over eight hours and my feet kill by the end of it like I want to cry hurt this week my grandma has been kind if driving me nuts she is a little bit too in my buisness I know she means well but after six months of living on my own not having to tell anyone where I was going what time I would be home etc maybe I'm just cranky see the way I blow off steam and think through things is while I drive I haven't been able to drive in over month seeing as I have no car and its driving me over the edge so david came up to see me this weekend it was interesting and we had some good talks and some fun times I got my friend lindsays wedding announcement sadly its not in the budget to make a trip down to st george but congrats Lindsay and Austin every happiness to you both to anyone who knows Lindsey lee their wedding is July thirty first and they are getting married in the st george temple hmmm I think that's everything for right now oh wait I forgot to mention that got accepted to salt lake community college and was granted independent status so I qualify for finacial aid now yay I will be going back to college to become a secondary education teacher I would love to be a high school history teacher thanks to my history teacher in high school who made history fun for me mr Hansen rocks ok that's it for now

everything is coming together and some are breaking apart

All right everyone update time I had my first day as a server and considering it was my first day I did pretty ok I only dropped a piece of silverware the whole night they make us wear tuxedo shirts and black pants then black slacks there is something about going as fast as you can to serve people who eat as slow as they walk its kind of ironic I have another shift today for the lunch shift so we will see how well that goes my working out is going good I went every morning last week and am pretty excited that I stuck with it hopefully I will be able to stick it out another week so my best friend Jill is now dating my ex Jeff its so strange to think about that though they do have similar personalitys and I hope it works out for them Taylor is still getting married to Dallas in October and I'm way happy for her a bit soon perhaps but they will make a cute couple as everything comes into place here in salt lake I'm beggining to realize this is where I belong and that I was not crazy in my feeling that I should move here as I live with my grandparents and have gotten a job I can finally be a kid I don't have to worry about how I'm going to pay the rent or where I'm going to find the money for food it had been a great relief for me and sincerely think my grandparents are guardian angels my parents and I see stil not talking and honestly I think that it has helped my stress and anxiety levels so much Kelsey and I see still. Not talking I don't remember what we fought about but we were drifting apart anyway so maybe its for the best and I will just let it be well that's all I really have an update on I hope everybody has a great day

a new baby and a new job

Pk I know I posted yesterday but I have some bits of news that I would like to share kellir had her baby today her water broke last night at three thirty in the morning he is healthy and both mom and baby are doing great so congrats to them ok my second piece of news I finally got a job I will be a server at a retirment community and its doesn't pay all that well but in this economy just to have a job is wonderful so I'm very excited that everything seems to be falling into place and it seems that I was right in my feeling that I am supposed to be here in salt lake anyways congrats kellie your going to be a wonderful mom and the Conner jaxon thayer is very lucky to have parents like you too

congrats kellie and Garrett

So I have decided I should update this more so here goes I just found out that my friend kellie is in labor woth her first baby a son they are going to name Conner so congrats to them I'm praying that all goes well so things up here in salt lake are fine my grandmother and I had our first fight yesterday about me listening to my ipod at night I won lol but it really wasn't that big a deal my grandparents were nice enough to get me a gym membership so I have been going to that to lose weight and I'm loving it so far well at least as much as you can love. The gym lol this Saturday were going to go see hello dolly at hale centere theatre and I'm way excited they always out on wonderful plays ok I have to go jump in the shower have a good day everybody

events that have happened in good old salt lake

So its been awhile since I posted so I thought hmmm I should update it well things re going good up here in salt lake I have moved in with my grandparents due to some very complicated un forseen circumstances that I won't go into here but I will on my other private blog so happy fourth of July everybody hope that you all lost some of your hearing because the fireworks were so awesome my grandparents and. My aunt and I went to the parade and then to Murray park to look at the clasic cars which my grandpa just loved he was sitting there telling us all these old stories which was cool then we went and saw up which I thought was depressing I cried more than I laughed let's see oh my birthday was awesome pictures are coming soon on my facebook david and I went to lagoon and had a blast hmmm david yes one of my best friends is now mad at me because of him and won't talk to me nut it makes me sad that the longest conversation we had had in months was when she was upset with me I know she is really busy but honestly I don't really feel like I know here anymore oh this is my best friend in salt lake not Jill Jill and I are still tight lol which brings me to my trip down to st george awesome of course went and saw the touchan plays footloose and Annie since David works as a techie I got in free saw Jill for a little bit ran into my ex Jeff Davenport and of course I looked horrible after getting off a six hour bus ride ugh that was so not fun but I'm happy to be back up here in salt lake my friend kellie is about to have her baby in a week so I wish all the best to her she will have a beautiful baby boy good luck and enjoy that coke as soon as the baby pops out lol to everyone else in case I don't see you good afternoon good evening and good night

and it continues

Have you ever met someone who no matter what you do always wants more or is never happy with you I have one of those in my life and it gets so frustrating sometimes as of right now I'm not talking to my parents not because I'm mad at them but because I can't handle having so many fights and I take responsibility for some of those fights but I'm sick of hearing the phone ringing and having anxiety that its my parents wanting to talk to me about some other problem they have thought of I went to my grandparents over the memorial day weekend and it was so fun and relaxing we went to a play and to dinner and to vist some of my relatives graves which was interesting to hear stories about them while there my parents called a total of twenty six times (I'm not kidding) and left five messages finally I just talked to them to make them stop they wanted me to go on prescription sleeping pills because they had heard from my employer that I was not sleeping through the night they wanted me to answer them right then because I'm going off their insurance as soon as I turn nineteen this week I told them I didn't want to bedcause I didn't want to become dependent on them that started a whole other conversation finally I had to go to church they called after church and said they were giving their parental rights over to my grandparents what parental rights I'm nineteen I am legally an adult so I'm not quite sure what they meant by that lol but they wanted me to ask my boss off for Tuesday Wednesday Thursday for my sisters birthday the and I was supposed to ask her to not have meetings take it off work and we also have an extra kid we babysitt on Wednesday and Thursdays it just wasn't possible but all they kept saying was that Amy would understand I'm sure she would but this is my job this is how I pay rent I'm not just going to leave her in the lurch like that I bought her a birthday present and sent it with my grandparents gift so I'm in trouble for that but I just don't want this drama anymore but we will see how my birthday goes this weekend David is coming up and we are going to lagoon and to spend sometime together I miss him a lot he is my best friend ever snd we talk all the time so that will be fun then I'm going to my grandparents for dinner so hopefully those of you who know both of us this is my side of the story

everything is falling apart

So once again I find myself in a bind I love the kids I nanny they are so darn cute but living with this family is so akward I feel like an outsider like a guest that has over stayed their welcome I'm sure they don't mean to make me feel like that and they are really sweet I just don't know something is wrong then thee is my parents

aspens play

Tonight the little girl I babysitt was in a play she was flaps the bird she did such a good job it was so cute and I loved watching her afterwards when her parents were hugging her. And taking pictures and giving her her flowers I couldn't help but be a little sad that used to be me dance recitals and competions and I miss it a lot I feel bad that my parents and I will never have that again that picture time and the flowers and the proud look on my dads face though he didn't really understand dance anyway aspen did amazing

salt lake

So I finally moved up north I love it here I have a huge room and its decorated so dang cute I have enjoyed getting to know Amy all over again she was one of my older best friends. When I lived up here we went shopping all the time it was really fun I love the kids that I'm nannying they are just so darn cute

catch up

I wonder some times if we put a time line on our selves get married at twenty have kids by twenty two and then their are the culture expectations in Utah it is considered the norm when girls get married right after high school boys are expected to get married six months to a year after their mission outside of Utah people would never dream of marrying that young then their is the category of miss fits that I fall under I am turning nineteen this month I don't have a boyfriend and don't really want one I think its stupid to get married before your twenty your not developed enough as a person I don't want to tie myself down to one person so soon I want to go explore the world I want to live on my own and experience life I want it to be what am I going to do Friday night not what are we going to do Friday night I have two friends in particular that come to mind when talking about this area one of my friends is mature beyond her age and I never ever thought she would get married young in fact the month before she got engaged we had a talk about how she wanted to finish school first etc etc then she met her husband now this is the part I don't agree with first time she met him they held hands second time she met him they kissed third time she saw him he asked her to be his girlfriend fourth time he proposed fifth time they got married now he lived in cali so it was a bit different age got married two weeks before her nineteenth birthday now my other friend met this guy in ninth grade waited for him on his mission graduated high school early so that she could marry him as soon as she turned eighteen which she did twi weeks after she turned eighteen she is eight months pregnant now and turned nineteen two months ago now she is better prepared than most couples are her husband has a career and they can afford a nice town house but is she mentally and psychologically ready for this I have no idea maybe she is and though I know I want to wait for marriage and get married when I feel is right I can't help but be jealous of my friends I want that perfect wedding the wedding ring to plan the wedding I want a baby I want to go home and tell my husband I'm pregnant and watch him get excited I feel like I'm watching all of my friends race ahead of me with their lives while I'm stuck in the same old rut I go to their weddings and that little nagging voice in the back of me head saying what if you never get married what if you wait to long what if no one wants you so I end this post with the beginning to we out time lines on ourselves

finals and life in general

So finals are finally over I passed all but one my lifeguarding one stupid brick anyway now I'm just working on moving out of my dorms I never realized I had so much stuff its going to take me forever to do I feel really dizzy today like I can barely stand up its bad

two weeks

Well I'm in a slightly better mood than I was in my last post so I have two more weeks then I'm headed up north for the summer possibly longer we will see I'm supposed to be packing right now but I'm putting it off until the very last minute just like my mom does loland on that note I had an interesting Sunday night dinner my mok and I got in another fight suprise suprise does it even matter what its about its always one thing or another if any of you have seen Gilmore girls you know those weekly dinners she goes to to see her mother those are exactly what my dinners are like just not as fancy feel free to sympathasize lol I suppose I should get back to packing

to all my friends that i supposedly had

So I was thinking about it and I'm so glad that I'm leaving st George their are just so many people who will pretend to be your friend then stab you in the back its amazing how fake this town is I can count on one hand and not even using all of my fingers how many true friends I have had as I say here thinking about my time in st George and only a couple people came into my mind as to who I would miss any yet I thought of dozens of people that I would finally be away from no wonder I honestly hated high school all the people I thought were my friends are just a bunch of idiots I'm done trying to break into your groups and be your friend I can't wait to leave here and I was thinking about coming back but honestly I would rather shoot myself I don't think anyone will read this as I don't have any followers so what does it matter ... Well it made me feel better anyway I'm sure I'm just in a dark mood I'm sorry if this offends anyone that was not specifically my intention

the week sucked so this is me complaining about it

so all in all this week has completly sucked i didnt get into the college i wanted to not that it would matter anyway because my parents refuse to sign the fafsa so that i could have gotten a student loan i finally told my parents that im not moving back into the house for the summer but am going to be a nanny up north i thought things were finally getting better with them we had decided that i would come for sunday dinner and spend time with the family which i thought would work out perfectly well my first sunday home my mother barely spoke to me she was looking at old pictures of me and was sad about how i had turned out i thought she had finally accepted me and that things would get better i guess not i spent most of that sunday doing my laundry and talking to my dad which was nice cos i got to spend a little more time with him which is rare so this sunday i didnt go over to my house cos my family had gone up to general confrence before this my mother had apologized to me about ignoring me on sunday and had asked me to go to lunch so we could start building a relationship again...it made me feel a whole lot better i was excited to go to lunch and get to know my mom again so my mother hadnt talked to me since two days before they left for general confrence and still hasnt talked to me until i got a message from her on facebook saying we couldnt do dinner this sunday cos its easter. i didnt even know i wasnt going to be invited for easter apparently being part of the family doesnt mean i get to come home for holidays i was really excited to come home and watch my little brothers and sisters hunt for easter eggs i was going to suprise my little sister with tickets to the new hannah montana movie cos i know she really wants to go yes my life sucks i cant wait to go up north and get away from everything

so i decided i should prob post another update etc etc as of right now it looks like i will be going up north to nanny for some of my really good friends for the summer but we will see im hoping and praying it works out. i went home for spring break well kind of lol i house sat for my parents while they went to disneyland my brother who is a party pooper stayed home cos he doesnt like roller coasters lol so i stayed at the house all week which was nice to kind of relax and just be home and not worry about anything for awhile but now i have to go eat dinner so will try and update more i promise

first blog

hey everyone so this is my new blog and just to let you all know me a little better.. im 18 i live in the college dorms and obviously i go to college lol i have an awesome boyfriend named david who pretty much helps me with everything i ever need lol so basically whats happening in my life...im still looking for a job there are no jobs in st george at all im serious its just yeah... i might have to find a job in salt lake or vegas or i dont know we will see....ugh anyway thats all for now